That thing you do.

People around told me,

"Be what you need to be."

I say "I am me, you see."

I know they care alot,

I make them worry and thats my fault.

At times i stop my bad ways,

but i got it back the upcoming days.

I knew i shouldn't have that,

to prevent things to go bad.

I seen the real stuffs,

somehow all of it was just bluffs.

I got it straight, into my head.

That this isn't a game.

Life cycle, and that its name.

I won't have to point, But I rather toss coins.

It won't be long for me to follow along.

I thought we're family?

But you made it like we're enemy.

These aren't negative thoughts,

so its better posting it on the dot.

Hate me as you wish, Kill me like a fish. (:

Or maybe, pretend that i never exist.

Don't have to worry,

cause you're not for me to marry. HAHA!

I love you like a baseball player with his hat,

which is Haslin Bte Samat. (:

Taking Caring to people from all the bearings! haha!

Source outcast.

I found something weird sealed inside of me.

I thought is had gone far away to the sea?

But i was wrong indeed,

it is still there living with no greed.

I got the Juvenile out from my grip,

having the Jeopardy building its own crib.

I may have got it.

Or i am faking this shit? (:

Just maybe i did.

To be sure, come here!

Give me a hit! HAHA.

I'm chilling without any notice.

I hope people are happy to see this. (:

Takecare Los Angeles!

Seeyou in a few months less? (:

Something i learnt.

I got no idea about this.
I broke that specs of mine.
While i changed in a few of time.
Why is it such a myth?
Or what they call something unrealistic?
I got me unknown, when youre being well known.
I learnt something,
something strange.
I don't wanna think as it wld make my heart sink.
I let it go, Rather than letting you be so low.
This is done for you.
Just to tell you if you think i'm untrue.
I still feels your heart.
And still, i'll leave you to be happy without any But.
I learnt something, something insane.
Ilostme.

Unstoppable sin.

I wrecked a heart once upon a time.

Now, my body was being wrecked.

How is that suppose to be?

Thoughts wrecked my mind.

Truth wrecked my heart.

Soccer wrecked the rest of it. (:

Forgive me?

I beg.

Promise me?

Don't put a bet. Haha.

Gtg.

Fullstops after fullstops.

I thought it stops there.

Or maybe i thought it follows thru.

But i guess, it wouldn't come true.

I don't wish to say this.

But i miss her. Alot.

Why must it be now?

Why not when we're still together?

Won't it be a good thing if i miss her then.

And not now.

Gosh.

Cause,it feels so different.

You missed someone that you're unsure if they are missing you too.

If feels like a thousand wonders of words running thru your mind world.

But, i do love the way you're now.

You got friends around you.

You smile,when they are.

They love you. (but i love you more)

You said,miracles can happen.

True as it can be.

:) But for me,fate has happened. ):

Imytm.

Some time ago.

I wish i'm still studying in BLSS right now.

Taking my O'levels this year.

It is a real different being in a new school with new studies.

Having said that, doing the O'levels are much more easier than this ITE shit.

Swear.

I answered their questions,

saying i'm gg poly.

But hey,i lied.

I guess.

I just wanna pull this off.

I just wanna stop this.

Just to give up.

On this studies.

God.

Weird feeling noticed.

I'm late for school again.

As always. (:

It feels different in school just now.

I need to act out a script.

But i just don't feel like it.

In bus heading home,

my head was spinning.

Gosh.

What's up actually?

I'm sick. So sick.

Lose myself.

Today.

The start of a real studying.

Lectures.

Sleepy. (*YAWN* *YAWN*)

Got to a practical lesson.

Studying about circuits.

Gosh.

I was darn stupid.

I didn't know anything about it.

And, i got into some kind of a fight with my classmates.

Maybe, i was too strict to myself. Maybe because of the stress i'm facing.

Anywy, i hope we're ok.

The previous post was for my classmates too. (:

So ya, I'm still banned for soccer. ):

Takecare Everybody.

To you guys.

Low in fatigue.

0815 hours.

Suppose to be the time i report at ITE Dover.

0835 hours.

It was the time Me and Shafiq reached ITE Dover.

Late as always. (:

Sepak Takraw for Sports and Wealthness.

Technicians at work from 10am to 12pm.

No work done from 1pm to 3pm.

1600 hours.

Got out of ITE Dover.

Walking unperfectly.

Got a twisted ankle.

Soccer is banned.

(Everywhere I go, I cant get you out of my head.)

Disenchanted.

Wonders.

It fully took over.

I'm down for the count.

Unsure.

It makes me wonder.

I'll be sure about it in the coming future.

When germs take over.

It got me.

It doesnt want to back off.

Until it succeed on making me fall off. ):

If it did.

I won't be here anymore.

See it, hear it, know it and believe it. ):

Verge of being dead.

I missed the date.

Oh god.

Its ok.

It shouldn't be written here,

it isn't compulsary. (:

As long as it is still intact in my mind.

Whatever it is.

BLSS sports day was a rack.

I thght i will get the chance to see the FASTEST girl running.

In the 4 x 100m Event! haha.

AAAWWWW.. It starts to rain.

Sooo saddddd. =D

Nvm. I'm cool.

I have been struck by the cough disease. ):

Cry with me.

Goodbye.

(I see you. I do see you.)

Tragedy of family.

It is school day as usual.

It was about 0903 hours.

I saw someone i knew in bus 243W.

It was who? :D

It was Cik Sa'adiah.

I guess it was her,

eventhough my eyesight wasn't clear enough.

Heehee.

Today i learnt physics!

Gosh.

We calculated about voltage,current & resistance.

With Mr Masjuri in class INDEED.

hahahaha!

He is cool enough for the old age of his. (:

Ending time at 1630 hours.

Released at 1530 hours.

:)

As usual, TB.

Chill out.

Home.

1856 hours.

Three hours of lesson.

A different day, somehow.

1235 hours.

Reached ITE dover.

Started at 1300 hours.

Early as i could be. (:

It was Life Skill subject for today.

Just talking and presenting. COOL.

Ended at 1545 hours.

I didn't ate properly the whole day. ):

No rice left for me at the cafe/canteen.

Sob Sob.

Nvm then.

Waited for my friend.

Got into 198.

Reached TB at 1800 hours.

Loiter till 1855 hours.

Rest till now,here i am.

I feel a lil different nowadays.

Is it bad? or good?

They came.

At 0900 hours again.

Reached ITE dover.

Start at 0830 hours.

Late.

Form fillings.

0945 it ends.

Bored.

Legally released for break.

Till 1245 hours.

More new friends. :)

Ate,They smoked,Drank,Hang out.

1245 hours arrived.

Go back to class.

For attendance.

Legally released.

Gone to ITE clementi.

Syed,Syukri,Ju,Achit.

Bus 99.

Tb.

Takraw.

Java Village.

Went home.

1900 hours.

That is for 2nd day of school.

Starting the migration.

0900 hours.

ITE Campus Dover.

Wasted One hour.

Have some snacks.

Late for orientation. :)

Knew a friend, JOHN.

(And who's that having the second look?)

Forget it. :D

Ran away from class at 1500 hours.

Dismissal at 1700 hours.

End of 1st day. =)

Automatically counted.

One Month.

Thirty-one Days.

Seven Hundred And forty-four Hours.

New in brew.

Insomnia.

The new era.

No thinkings,but can't be sleeping. (:

Mal-Vivente.

Happy 18th Birthday to Amir.

You slept.

We sang.

We celebrated.

You slept.

We sang.

We celebrated.

Happy 18th Birthday to Amir.

Aeroplane is coming.

Tomorrow, date 09/04/10.

At 3.00pm.

Off to London.

Via Singapore Airlines.

I know myself.

Trying to understand things is outstanding.

But when people tell you something,

you need to be understanding.

If their not understanding,

they start to assume.

When this is happening,

you shouldn't resume.

Far but close related.

Syed nasri.

A friend.

A cousin.

He's always on my right,

while taking pictures.

:)

We got some similarities,

even differences.

He once had a r/s for about 7-8 mths.

So, do i.

I guess, he still misses her.

Maybe, in my case i still do too.

He likes blue, Me too.=D

But, he likes vege!

I hate them! =P

So ya, thats about it.

Syed nasri.

A friend.

A cousin.

Where will that be.

A place.

For some safe keeping,

chill sitting,

brain cracking,

heart pumping,

jaw breaking,

life killing,

and maybe..

For some love healing.

If then,

i'll tell the whole world about the place.

:)

(You)

Diseased.

Oh god. I cant imagine how much of this must i handle.
I'm dying before i could live.
Its getting worst.
God. Please.
Crumpled.