Hatred.

I started to hate myself.

Because of my wrong doings.

I started ignoring about my health,

Because i'm always up to some thinkings.

But boy,

I HATE YOU MORE. __

For you.

So much hurting i've caused you.
People thought i'm one super duper perfect guy.
_|_ Wrong. Just very wrong indeed.
I hadn't get over what happened just now.
I still can't forgive myself at all.
I lose myself at that point when i realized what i did was stupidly wrong.
I will be gone for quite awhile.
Idk how long.
I'm sorry again.
I can't even look at your face for now, because it will just display how much damaged i'd caused. :\
Don't come and look for me.
Just for the meantime.
Do what you want to do.
I have no rights in stopping you.

I will always love you. Remember this.

Take good care of yourself. Don't forget to eat your meals. :)
Bye love.

A race within days.

When you decide to go,

I wish i could say no.

But i'm no one to you,

Just a boyfriend and that's true.

Letting go isn't like leaving a pen behind,

And i won't be just fine.

So much things happening,

Causing lots of crying.

I wish letting someone go was easy, So you won't even forget the word happy.

He said all those stuff,

Makes me laugh.

Thinking why the heck he blew off those chances,

Sick assES.

I don't hate you nor you,

He's big enough to handle what he needs to go through.

Sigh.

I'm sick. I'm weak. I'm a freak.

Just watching the clock ticks.

You'll be gone.

I felt it everytime its dawn.

And when you do,

I'll pray the best for you. :)

Farewell. ;)

-PEACE PALS.

Feel it.

So much hardships.
Hurtings.
Neglection.
So better to make myself feel all that shits, rather than let others.
bye,

Why now.

Thinkin' whats happenin'.

You.

Why now?

Or am i too insecure?

Could be me?

Fcukin' shits.

Let it go away.

Faster.

Head home.

For granted.

Asswipe.

One hell of a kind.

Asskisser.

Freaking piece of shit.

Bootlicker.

Just a thankyou.

You can't even do?

Then life by yourself,

And see who will be the ones left.

Peace be upon you.

Just one show of my middle finger.

One thing that ease every pain,

Is the unstoppable rain.

It gave me the calmness of nature,

And also gave the city a cold picture.

You think i've gain is me bringing along my specs,

Because i just don't feel there's a need anymore to slack.

It's time to learn,

Because all this while i didn't.

And yes,

I wish to tell it to the press.

That i felt jealous so easily,

That really makes myself in a little jeopardy.

I hate it,

Even if i felt it just a little bit.

Who should i point my middle finger at?

Is it to that rat?

Or to myself i bet.

What a jerk i am.

Disgrace.

Done.

Brainache

I suck big time.

Saying without doing.

Great enough.

Fcuking ass attitude.

Get a grip.

Make it real.

Go to hell.

Bizarre.

View that no one can drew. Maybe a view that is untrue, who knew?

Feelings unknown at times.

Its a lot of thoughts,

Running through this head,

At a bad time.

I feel like i just wanna rot,

And lay on my bed,

And create some rhyme.

I don't know why,

But its so easy to cry,

And i don't even need to try.

I just need an assurance,

But i won't do so,

I will just have patience.

Initiative?

I wonder.

Sometimes i just need a little initiative,

To make know that feeling is real.

I'll stop this pessimistic thingy,

Soon as possible.

hate me?

i know you hate this shit out of me.

oh god.

why.

bye.

Somewhere far to see.

I kinda love it. There's blue. :)

D.F.A

Girlfriend going off in 6 hours time.

What more to update?

I'm gonna miss her.

Bye blog.

Be dead for awhile. :)

What i felt.

Felt dead.

Felt useless.

Felt helpless.

Felt lifeless.

Brb.

I'm just indifferent.

Just like everyday,

I'm here awaits the sun's ray.

Just nothing to do,

For me it seems untrue.

Because usually i'm full of activities,

And now i don't even owned a list.

Sometimes life gives me a big bang on the sidelines,

And at times i don't even know if i'm feeling fine.

Some people get drunk to release stress,

But i kept doing exercise which suit me best.

I'm different,

But i ain't some perfect person.

Indeed i feel so awake,

And i just don't need any sleeping break.

I feel like listening to music all night,

Till my light from my window gets so bright.

So you guys just sleeptight,

Don't have your dreams giving you fright.

Bye.